Gag ME!

I started a new job yesterday, and quit four hours later. This may seem slightly flaky to you all. I can see the little thought conversation bubbles popping up above your heads as I am writing this. These bubbles are containing thoughts such as, "Yep, that is typical Helen, not wanting to really work." or "Oh that crazy Helen, she is such a slacker. When is she going to learn to suck it up and just do it?" There are many more I know that have been thought. But, ladies and gentlemen, I am here to assure you that these thoughts (though once upon a time they might have been true) are ridiculous! I will now proceed to tell you about the worst job ever!

I thought that I was qualified for the position. I was going to be working with adults with disabilities. No big deal. I have done various jobs of this sort for the past four year. I have done everything and seen everything...so I thought...

I was going to be working in a house full of guys. I was scheduled for the graveyard shift from 11 pm to 9 am. INTENSE! But I assured myself that I could do this! I am a big girl and I have gotten accustomed to putting my big girls pants on.

I went for my training shift, and that is when it all crumbled at my feet. I don't even know where to begin. My supervisor had made it sound like I was going to be working with someone and that the house was an easy one...uh no...I was going to be working alone with Men who had serious problems. (Sexual problems, among other things) I was starting to panic! There was no way I was going to be able to do this!OH MY GOODNESS! I could hardly breath! It was so awful, not to mention the longer I was with the house manager, the more I realized she was a genuinely horrible person. I have never heard someone swear so casually ever! I know swearing seems like such a little thing but when accompanied with dirty jokes it is the cherry on top of a rotten banana split.

The kicker was then when I realized why they had me sign a disclaimer stating that I was not allowed to sue the company for any psycological or physical damages that I may incur while working for them. They mentioned to me that one client was sex crazed and could get violent if not stratified...so I should watch my back. UMMMM...no that's not happening.

So, needless to say, I am looking for a different job. ugh...I hate job hunting. I have applied for a position down at reams to work in their bakery. It would be a pretty sweet deal.

Oh boy, I am still in shock about everything...ugh...I just can't believe it. Wish me luck and maybe say a prayer that I will get the bakery job. It would be pretty amazing!

Garage Work

I am writing this blog to you live from the Wilson's garage in Salt lake City Utah. I know I am that cool. Mostly I was cleaning out Doug, my car. I was listening to pandora when I decided to get on to facebook and check something out real fast. When I noticed a ridiculous trend...People getting married at such a young age.

I would like to take a second and have an indepth talk with you all about this issue.

I love the church and I believe with all of my heart that it is true. I would love to remind you all that it is in no way church council for individuals to get married so young. I have never heard a prophen bust out and say, get married right after your mission or girls get married as quickly. (Not that I have much room to talk, but I would like you to know that I have learned from my mistakes and now see the folly of my ways.)

I am not against marriage, I would just like to remind you that in american society we don't fully reach maturity until around the age of twenty five or twenty six. I know it is an insane statistic but 100 % accurate I assure you.

Being single is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I love having the independence of not having to worry about another individual or about any little kiddies. Few...I am doing just fine with enjoying my nieces and nephews. I get them when they are happy and pass them back over when they need something other than fun.

Okay, what brought this on is a couple of factors. On facebook almost every group I have joined has been a "WE ARE GETTNG MARRIED YAY!" Group. Congratulations to you all, I am very happy for you. (The one exception to this group is the "I bet this pickle can get more fans than twilight" group, it seemed like a good cause.)
But if you are younger than 23 you are being silly. Most of you don't have a clue what is going on in the real world. The other thing that brought this on was that I just joined another one of the wonderful groups and the title of it was " adam and heather are finally getting married!" (names have been changed to assure privacy and discresstion) Umm...Im pretty sure I went on a date with this boy in April. WOW! They have been dating for so long...ummm...not.

What is wrong with Mormon Society? Why can't we seem to not date before getting married? I know that every mormon young adult lives in fear of "messing up." But im here to tell you if you play it smart there is not need to worry. Pay attention to what has been taught to us and it will all be okay. The plus side of this is that you will actually get to know the person before you marry them. Hormones aside! YAY!

Alrighty then, so In conclusion:

1- Boys, I knwo the 18 and 19 year old girls seem great but don't go trying to raise yourself a wife...give her sometime to grow up.

2-Girls, stop freaking out if you are older than 20 and not married, take sometime to grow and learn and become independent. Remember that school is for learning and not for finding a husband. Don't make that your focus.

3-Lets all try dating for more than a month before getting engaged...I think this sounds good...

There you have it. If I think of anything else I may just come back and add it.
Excuse the typos and errors. I have to run to the grocery store! Happy Dating!

Home...

I have now moved home from Logan. I almost cried as I was leaving the city...almost. I have loved my time in Logan and all that I have learned there.

Being home is and adventure. Mom and I are trying not to kill each other. It is going rather well right now...we will see how it is in three months. I hope okay.

I am lamenting the loss of friends. I don't really have any in slc anymore. Sigh, I will make some right? I hope so. sorry it has been so long. My life is a wreck right now! I have things everywhere!

Say What!

I am serving my mission in Latvia! WHAT! I am going to be learning Latvian! CRAZY! I am kinda in shock about the whole thing! Jackie and Virgil thought it was great! Jackie told me to take courage because everyone hates each other over there. I am so happy and excited! except that I don't leave for another four months! I don't go into the MTC until September 22nd.

I am so excited for this new adventure to start. It will be amazing. I can't wait to be in the service of the Lord for 18 mo! I love this gospel! I am so pumped! BRING IT ON!

Nada...

So I finally had my bishop check on the status of my mission call. They are still waiting to assign me to a place to go...which is good to know. I was tired of opening my mail box and finding nothing...

So do you want to know what I hate? I hate over analyzing. But that doesn't mean I don't participate in the practice of over analyzing. I think that I might actually be the chair person of over analyzing are us. Oh boy...Alright so here is what I am over analyzing right now...

I met this guy, he is pretty cool. We have done stuff twice, yes this stuff did include kissing, and kite flying, and ice cream eating. we have also talked multiple times. So the other day he sends me a text asking about my mission. I responded back. Which resulted in us texting the whole day. I finally had to tell him I was going to sleep. The next day I didn't want him to think that I was totally blowing him off so I sent him a text. To be reassuring more than anything. He responded back and we ended up texting all day again, until I fell asleep while texting him...oops...

Well, I wasn't going to be the first one to text him today. But then I got to thinking about it, what if he was like, "wow, she must not be that into me..." when really I am into him. I don't let boys kiss me unless I am into them. I have found that this is just a good general rule of thumb. So, I sent him a text today saying, "Hey, sorry I fell asleep last night" Which of course he responded to.

Alright so we are texting again. Here are the things I am over analyzing (oh boys! if you even knew what girls do, then you wouldn't do to us what you do!)
1-Why did he kiss me? He knows I am going on a mission
2-Why is he texting me back?
3-Why does he talk to me forever when we do talk? For like an hour and a half. These aren't just little small chats, they are conversations.
4-Why does he take so long to respond to my texts? I mean, like an a half hour or more! Is he thinking to himself. "I really am not that into her but I don't want to be rude..." Because I can tell you that I usually try to nip those kind of things in the butt. I hate getting unwanted texts, and I find that I just don't respond to someone when I don't like them like that but I know that they like me like that. Does that make any sense?

Okay, I maybe just needed to get this off my chest...WHAT IS GOING ON! Oh boy! I feel so confused right now...Please no comments about me going on a mission and still having a crush on a boy...just because I am going on a mission doesn't mean that I am impervious to emotions...

Wednesday...

I get my call this Wenesday! I know CRAZY! This whole process has taken forever! Lol, but I can handle it.

So, someone asked me the other day why I was leaving and I gave a really lame response. I highly doubt that person will ever read my blog, but I am going to respond here.

I told that person that I was unsure why I was going, it think I gave this answer because I was super tired and befuddled.

I do know why I am going, there are a million reasons why I am going. I think that the main one is because I know it is right for Helen. This whole process has been one giant leap of faith for me. I have had to work so hard to get where I am right now. (For those of you who know the whole story you totally understand!)

The other day I was walking across campus and I ran into my friend Matt, who is also getting his mission call this wednesday. We started talking and laughing. Discussing where we would think it would be cool to go. We didn't know at the time that we had an audience. When all of the sudden this guy walks over to us and ask "do you mind if I say something to you two?" Uh, well what were we going to say? It seemed like he was going to say it whether we said yes or no. So we let him speak.

He said to us, " I am a convert to the church. And I can tell both of you that the Lord will send you to the place where there is that one person who is waiting for you to bring them the truth."

It was such a neat experience for me. To hear a convert kinda bear his testimony. On parting he looked back at both of us and said " I am so jealous of both of you, that you get to go and teach. I never had the opportunity but I wish that I had."

I know this church is true. I know the blessings the gospel brings. I am so grateful for it. Not everyone gets to go out and spread this joy...

Serving a mission is a once in a life time opportunity. Getting married and having a famiy can wait. I will have the chance to do that for the rest of my life. But I will only have the chance to spread the joy of the gospel as a missionary once in my life.

Those are some of the reasons I am going. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and Savior's love! :) Life will all work out. Just have faith and know that God's timing is perfect, we just may not know it at the time!

Love ya all!
Hels.

24

So, Last night I made a new dinner, it was peanut butter chicken. Oh my goodness! It was so so amazing! I loved it!

I also made dessert last night, a bunt cake, it was also good. It was even better before I dropped a quarter of it in the dirty dish water. Lol, I was attempting to get it out of the pan and onto the plate, when something went horribly wrong! Next thing I knew, the cake was broken into thirds with half of it sitting in the dirty dish water! My friend Erin and I laughed pretty hard about it. Uh...I love it when things like that happen to me while I am cooking. It keeps me humble.

Today I had a doctors appointment to get a refill on my Allergy Medication. I got out of class early, so to kill sometime before the appointment I went to the computer lab to check to see if my taxes had been accepted. (I know I know, your little Helen is growing up! I did my taxes before tax day this year!) As I walked out of the TSC I saw the bus that I needed to take to get to my appointment. I thought it was getting ready to leave so I literally sprinted across campus to catch the bus. As I got onto the bus the bus driver was laughing at me. I felt maybe a little foolish at this point. I felt really stupid when we sat there for like ten minutes on the bus before it moved! LOL! It was super funny...

And so when I got to the Doctors appointment, I was pumped back up by the doctor. He apparently felt the need to tell me how beautiful I was and that and I quote " I was beautiful enough to be on a magazine!" LOL! It was great and, as shallow as this is going to sound, it kinda made my day. Let it be known that the Doctor was like a sixty year old little old man! He cracks me up! Every time I go and see him he has something nice to say. Last time after he took my vitals he told me that I was in really good shape and then he asked me if I worked out. Oh man! I love it!

I know, the past 24 hours have really been amazing! Life is great! It is a beautiful sunny day up here in logan and the birds are singing and the sun is warming up the cold decrepit parts of Cache Valley that have not been touched by the warmth of the sun for 6 months. I love it up here! :)