Nada...

So I finally had my bishop check on the status of my mission call. They are still waiting to assign me to a place to go...which is good to know. I was tired of opening my mail box and finding nothing...

So do you want to know what I hate? I hate over analyzing. But that doesn't mean I don't participate in the practice of over analyzing. I think that I might actually be the chair person of over analyzing are us. Oh boy...Alright so here is what I am over analyzing right now...

I met this guy, he is pretty cool. We have done stuff twice, yes this stuff did include kissing, and kite flying, and ice cream eating. we have also talked multiple times. So the other day he sends me a text asking about my mission. I responded back. Which resulted in us texting the whole day. I finally had to tell him I was going to sleep. The next day I didn't want him to think that I was totally blowing him off so I sent him a text. To be reassuring more than anything. He responded back and we ended up texting all day again, until I fell asleep while texting him...oops...

Well, I wasn't going to be the first one to text him today. But then I got to thinking about it, what if he was like, "wow, she must not be that into me..." when really I am into him. I don't let boys kiss me unless I am into them. I have found that this is just a good general rule of thumb. So, I sent him a text today saying, "Hey, sorry I fell asleep last night" Which of course he responded to.

Alright so we are texting again. Here are the things I am over analyzing (oh boys! if you even knew what girls do, then you wouldn't do to us what you do!)
1-Why did he kiss me? He knows I am going on a mission
2-Why is he texting me back?
3-Why does he talk to me forever when we do talk? For like an hour and a half. These aren't just little small chats, they are conversations.
4-Why does he take so long to respond to my texts? I mean, like an a half hour or more! Is he thinking to himself. "I really am not that into her but I don't want to be rude..." Because I can tell you that I usually try to nip those kind of things in the butt. I hate getting unwanted texts, and I find that I just don't respond to someone when I don't like them like that but I know that they like me like that. Does that make any sense?

Okay, I maybe just needed to get this off my chest...WHAT IS GOING ON! Oh boy! I feel so confused right now...Please no comments about me going on a mission and still having a crush on a boy...just because I am going on a mission doesn't mean that I am impervious to emotions...

Wednesday...

I get my call this Wenesday! I know CRAZY! This whole process has taken forever! Lol, but I can handle it.

So, someone asked me the other day why I was leaving and I gave a really lame response. I highly doubt that person will ever read my blog, but I am going to respond here.

I told that person that I was unsure why I was going, it think I gave this answer because I was super tired and befuddled.

I do know why I am going, there are a million reasons why I am going. I think that the main one is because I know it is right for Helen. This whole process has been one giant leap of faith for me. I have had to work so hard to get where I am right now. (For those of you who know the whole story you totally understand!)

The other day I was walking across campus and I ran into my friend Matt, who is also getting his mission call this wednesday. We started talking and laughing. Discussing where we would think it would be cool to go. We didn't know at the time that we had an audience. When all of the sudden this guy walks over to us and ask "do you mind if I say something to you two?" Uh, well what were we going to say? It seemed like he was going to say it whether we said yes or no. So we let him speak.

He said to us, " I am a convert to the church. And I can tell both of you that the Lord will send you to the place where there is that one person who is waiting for you to bring them the truth."

It was such a neat experience for me. To hear a convert kinda bear his testimony. On parting he looked back at both of us and said " I am so jealous of both of you, that you get to go and teach. I never had the opportunity but I wish that I had."

I know this church is true. I know the blessings the gospel brings. I am so grateful for it. Not everyone gets to go out and spread this joy...

Serving a mission is a once in a life time opportunity. Getting married and having a famiy can wait. I will have the chance to do that for the rest of my life. But I will only have the chance to spread the joy of the gospel as a missionary once in my life.

Those are some of the reasons I am going. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and Savior's love! :) Life will all work out. Just have faith and know that God's timing is perfect, we just may not know it at the time!

Love ya all!
Hels.

24

So, Last night I made a new dinner, it was peanut butter chicken. Oh my goodness! It was so so amazing! I loved it!

I also made dessert last night, a bunt cake, it was also good. It was even better before I dropped a quarter of it in the dirty dish water. Lol, I was attempting to get it out of the pan and onto the plate, when something went horribly wrong! Next thing I knew, the cake was broken into thirds with half of it sitting in the dirty dish water! My friend Erin and I laughed pretty hard about it. Uh...I love it when things like that happen to me while I am cooking. It keeps me humble.

Today I had a doctors appointment to get a refill on my Allergy Medication. I got out of class early, so to kill sometime before the appointment I went to the computer lab to check to see if my taxes had been accepted. (I know I know, your little Helen is growing up! I did my taxes before tax day this year!) As I walked out of the TSC I saw the bus that I needed to take to get to my appointment. I thought it was getting ready to leave so I literally sprinted across campus to catch the bus. As I got onto the bus the bus driver was laughing at me. I felt maybe a little foolish at this point. I felt really stupid when we sat there for like ten minutes on the bus before it moved! LOL! It was super funny...

And so when I got to the Doctors appointment, I was pumped back up by the doctor. He apparently felt the need to tell me how beautiful I was and that and I quote " I was beautiful enough to be on a magazine!" LOL! It was great and, as shallow as this is going to sound, it kinda made my day. Let it be known that the Doctor was like a sixty year old little old man! He cracks me up! Every time I go and see him he has something nice to say. Last time after he took my vitals he told me that I was in really good shape and then he asked me if I worked out. Oh man! I love it!

I know, the past 24 hours have really been amazing! Life is great! It is a beautiful sunny day up here in logan and the birds are singing and the sun is warming up the cold decrepit parts of Cache Valley that have not been touched by the warmth of the sun for 6 months. I love it up here! :)

Backstreets back...ALRIGHT! '

SO I accidentally left Toby in my friend Peter's car after our amazing vacation to island park. So I cannot rely on my dear friend Toby for music because he is in SLC. My internet isn't working on my computer, so I can't rely on Pandora. So I have been reduced to listening to the music that is on my computer.

I use Maddie's old computer, so it is basically her music on it.

The result of this has been Helen listening to The Backstreet boy's all week. Uh...I all of the sudden feel so in tune with my 12 year old self. It is great! Except for the fact that I still have to to adult things like go to work and school. My mom is no longer my alarm clock either. I have to cook my own food, do my own laundry and clean my own apartment. Basically the only way I am in tune with the past is with my music. OH NICK (as in Nick form the backstreet boys) wont you come and save me from this life that is full of responsibility and insanity! LOL! Oh boy!

You know the Backstreet boys aren't as good as I remember them being...huh...go figure!

School is almost over, summer is almost here. I maybe almost gone! :) We will see I find out in a week and a half!

Love you all! Have an amazing week! :)

You are my Sunshine...

Okay, so really sunshine is my sunshine and I miss it so so much!What is going on here! It snowed Eight inches in the Cache Valley on Monday! Oh no! Snow go away! No one likes you in April! It should be sunny and green, birds should be singing and the trees should be changing.

So the other day I sat in on someone in one of my classes, it was super funny! I was trying to get to the seat that my friends had saved for me. Well apparently people don't know how to move their bags, cause I tripped over a girls back and sat on the girl next to her. oops! lol it was pretty funny although I am pretty sure I blushed pretty bad! I still don't even know her name! Ha Ha!

I love life, just so you all know. Even if there is still snow on the ground here in the Cache Valley. Maybe I Should go snow shoeing!


The Lord loves us all and is there every second of everyday! Just thought you should all know.

I will be more diligent about writing, and about making them funnier. Because really my life is ridiculous!
Love, Hells!